Monday 12/15/08

Today was a pretty crappy day. I have a cold so I'm not feeling very good. I am still sad because Daisy is gone and I miss her. It's the coldest day it's been in Las Vegas all year. It's raining and even snowing all freaking day. It never stopped. Freezing! I had to go run an errand for work but it didn't go as planned so that pissed me off. I got back to work and had to deal with inconsiderate people. Since I wasn't feeling good all of this just seems so much worse then is really is ya know? On a normal day I would just deal with it without even letting it bother me at all but today I just couldn't take it!!! It seems like when it rains it pours. Not too many good things have happened the last 3 weeks and it really sucks because it's Christmas time....people are suppose to be happy around Christmas yet every year it seems to be when everything bad happens to me. I was looking forward to having a happy Christmas in my new house with Shaun and hopefully that can still happen but so far it has been a rocky start. I am excited though because my parents are coming down this weekend and they are staying for a week. That is so cool because I don't see them very often and I miss them very much. That is my light at the end of the tunnel right now. Hopefully tomorrow will bring better things.

The Late Great Miss Daisy

Death

Death is such a sad thing that every single one of us will have be faced with several times throughout our lives. How do we cope and keep going on? How do we stay happy and positive after we lose someone we were close to? It seems impossible to me right now. Even though I have a very strong spiritual belief that all my loved ones are in heaven or possibly already reincarnated back to earth....either way their spirit still lives and they have moved on. The hardest part is we are still here in the same situations having the constant reminder they are gone. Everywhere I look another memory or picture. It's so hard because for the rest of my life they won't be here. I wish I could see them on the other side and talk to them any time I wanted. I think that would make me feel better. Even though I truly believe they are okay I still miss them terribly. Even the people in my life I never really got to know I miss terribly because I wanted a chance to know them and for them to know me but that never happened because they were dead before I could remember. In all this sadness I have faith that God has put the people in my life for a reason and that is the same with the amount of time I have with those people. The way I look at it when someone dies they are going on to do bigger and better things that God wants them to do.

For all those friends, family and pets I have lost I love you and you will always be in my heart. I especially want to express my love for my dog Daisy that just passed away. She will always be my little fluffers.

For all my loved ones reading this I love you so much words can not express it. If I haven't talked to you for a while please pick up your phone and call me. Life is too short.